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12 June 2012 @ 09:15 pm
Ficlet: Ad Infinitum (BtVS)  
Title: Ad Infinitum
Word Count: 266
Rating: Teen and Up
Original/Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Characters/Pairings: Buffy/Spike
Summary: She hurts, and needs, and wants too.
Notes: Written for a prompt at fic_promptly from juliet316
BtVS, Buffy/Spike, We're caught in a bad romance

Ad Infinitum

He watches her stalk out of his crypt, her clothes in disarray, her skin still flushed. He rolls to a sitting position, hissing a bit as his abraded skin touches cold stone. The slam of the door ricochets around the room; Spike groans and holds his head with one hand, the other groping for the bottle of whiskey. Taking a swig, he settles back against the wall and sighs.

It’s the same thing every time. She lets it build and build until it gets too much for her to bear: the Scoobies, the money, the house, Dawn. Then she comes to him: comes for punishment, comes to forget, just comes. Because gods forbid that those people she really cared about should see that she is human after all! That she hurts, and needs, and wants too.

And when Buffy has gotten what she came for - sometimes several times over, he thinks with a smirk - she stalks out with a cutting remark or a meaningless threat, and a promise never to return. But she will return, again and again until she starts to believe not only that he cares for her too, just as much as they ever did, but that he understands her much, much better than they ever will.

Until that day, he will take what he can get. He will wrap himself around her and in her and cover himself with her. He will revel in the taste of her skin, the feel of her moving underneath him, her sighs, her moans, her demands.

Until the day she ends it. Because he never will.

kudagirlkudagirl on June 13th, 2012 11:02 am (UTC)
Here by su_herald. You captured why Spike put up with her actions so very well. And he did understand her. Maybe he didn't handle it very well at times, but he saw the real hurt girl that shouldered far too much in life. That's what makes me love Spuffy and understand them.
magickmoonsmagickmoons on June 13th, 2012 04:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! This was the first time I have written Spike. I'm glad it rang true :)
gillo: Sad Spikegillo on June 13th, 2012 11:14 am (UTC)
I really enjoyed this - it conveys the emptiness of the relationship and Spike's desperate, enduring hope for something better. He really believes she will learn to accept his love. Poor boy.
magickmoonsmagickmoons on June 13th, 2012 04:28 pm (UTC)
Thanks, that's really what I was shooting for. I always felt bad for Spike in that relationship...
slaymesoftlyslaymesoftly on June 13th, 2012 12:54 pm (UTC)
Oh, nicely ouchy and very Spike. Good job.
magickmoonsmagickmoons on June 13th, 2012 04:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you :)
waddiwasiwitchwaddiwasiwitch on June 13th, 2012 10:13 pm (UTC)
Also here via su herald. Wow - you got the whole dynamic right here. Spike just hoped and hoped, while she just took.
magickmoonsmagickmoons on June 14th, 2012 03:18 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! Spike never did manage to fully get rid of the hopeless romantic inside, did he?